So yesterday was Jacob's birthday. It was a hard day for everyone, especially Kirk who didn't mention the fact that it was Jacob's birthday at all.
My boyfriend. Trying to be the tough one. It's kind of sad sometimes. I remember when Jacob had just died and I had to be the tough one because Kirk was a walking water hose for a while.
I hated it! I had always been the one that needed to depend on someone. No one had ever depended on me like that. Finally I just lost it, through being the tough one I hadn't had the time to grieve at all. I mean I lost the one human being on this earth that could piss me off and then make me laugh so hard I almost pissed myself within twenty seconds of each other. Jacob was going to be the one to marry us, or be Kirk's best man. Knowing Jacob he probably would have been both and would've put the spotlight on himself and I probably would've gotten angry because it was my day. None of that can happen now.
I woke up yesterday thinking "Man, I wish Jacob was alive so we could have another my dad is a bigger douche bag than your dad argument." He always won but at least I felt better about myself afterwards.
Jacob's mom just recently got a gravestone for him. According to Kirk it is frikin massive. I think that is pretty fitting. First of all, Jacob was a huge dude. Second of all, after almost eight months of him being gone everyone still has a huge hole in their heart where he used to be. The most obnoxious human being on the planet left an obnoxiously empty space in a lot of people's lives.
Yesterday Jacob would have been twenty five.
My boyfriend. Trying to be the tough one. It's kind of sad sometimes. I remember when Jacob had just died and I had to be the tough one because Kirk was a walking water hose for a while.
I hated it! I had always been the one that needed to depend on someone. No one had ever depended on me like that. Finally I just lost it, through being the tough one I hadn't had the time to grieve at all. I mean I lost the one human being on this earth that could piss me off and then make me laugh so hard I almost pissed myself within twenty seconds of each other. Jacob was going to be the one to marry us, or be Kirk's best man. Knowing Jacob he probably would have been both and would've put the spotlight on himself and I probably would've gotten angry because it was my day. None of that can happen now.
I woke up yesterday thinking "Man, I wish Jacob was alive so we could have another my dad is a bigger douche bag than your dad argument." He always won but at least I felt better about myself afterwards.
Jacob's mom just recently got a gravestone for him. According to Kirk it is frikin massive. I think that is pretty fitting. First of all, Jacob was a huge dude. Second of all, after almost eight months of him being gone everyone still has a huge hole in their heart where he used to be. The most obnoxious human being on the planet left an obnoxiously empty space in a lot of people's lives.
Yesterday Jacob would have been twenty five.
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