i always catch myself looking back on freshman year with a smile.the first year of high school, man.. we all thought we were something.& i can say personally & for about everyone else in my grade, we all kinna lost it that year.we thought we were grown. we did what we wanted. & we ended up regretting it.but i still have to look back & laugh, i had no friken clue what i was doing.
that year i made two friendships, that i'm pretty much without now.one of them i'm glad to be rid of.. it destroyed a part of me that i still cant get back, after all.another.. i'm still pretty angry about losing. because it wasn't their fault, or my fault.it's all over... this stupid guy.a guy that took a beautful girl, & infected her personality with his crap.
& i'll NEVER be ok with that.
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that he took one of my best friend's away from me, when i needed her most.
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that she let him, because she's "in love."
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that i know he's killing her inside.
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that i'll never see her innocent smile again.
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that i can't talk to her about a friken thing, because he doesn't want to share her.
i'll NEVER be ok with the fact that he deprived her of her junior prom.
i can't shake this, i'll always have nightmares about it i've come to realize..i lost a friend. i lost my soul sister.
& i'll NEVER be ok with it.
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